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Last Monday I had a miscarriage. This Monday I’m sharing it with you.

By August 22, 2016August 23rd, 2019Community, Mom Life

I took a pregnancy test three weeks ago. I was beyond ecstatic when I saw this!


My husband was nervous, but I was ready! My body began to change immediately; boobs got bigger right away. After the first few weeks of my pregnancy passed, I felt a new kind of appreciation and love for my body. We started picking out names and deep inside I knew that I was already falling in love with my unborn child.

I told my family and friends as soon as I got the positive pregnancy test. Everyone had warned me not to share because “something could happen,” but I am a very open person. I could not contain this secret. I even decided to tell my staff (we’re pretty close-knit). And obviously I needed to make sure that they knew I was pregnant and that I hadn’t gotten a boob job!!

I am originally from Minnesota, but have been in Santa Barbara, CA for 16 years. On Sunday, Aug 14th, my 13 yr old nephew Blake came out to visit. In the span of 24 hours we went trail running, paddle boarding, did a Jenny Schatzle Program class, and ate tacos. With Aunt Jenny it is always GO GO GO!


The next day, Monday Aug 15th, I had my first doctor’s appointment with my obstetrician and gynaecologist. Although the timing wasn’t perfect with my nephew visiting, he was excited for me and wanted to come along. When I walked into the doctor’s office, I went on to tell her about my good health, how great I felt, and my excellent family health history. After explaining that my mother and sister have never had a history of morning sickness or miscarriages, my doctor was excited to take a look. With my husband eagerly looking in from the corner, and my nephew in the waiting room, I braced for the cold ultrasound gel. I looked over at the screen and saw the little nugget in the womb. But then I heard a big sigh from my doctor as she said, “I’m so sorry, there is no heartbeat. I’m going to give you both a couple minutes, I’m so sorry.”


I started crying, I felt so disappointed, as if I had failed. Did I do something wrong? Are children just not meant to happen for me? Did I wait too long, am I too old? It made no sense to me. When I was 20, I was a crazy child who drank too much, had zero responsibilities, and was scraping to pay the bills – my body could have had a child no problem at that point. Now I am 36 and finally have my life together! I’ve waited to get myself happy and healthy, in a great relationship, financially OK, and now it’s going to be difficult to have kids, WTF?

As you can imagine, this was absolutely terrible timing. Not only was I dealing with a miscarriage, but now I have to walk out and a tell my nephew we lost the baby. A 13-year-old boy is never equipped for that kind of news, especially one who is on vacation visiting his high-energy-positive-about-everything-fun-aunt.

The doctor scheduled a D&C for the next day, Aug 16th.

Now, I don’t want to ruin my tough girl reputation… but I HATE needles! I hate hospitals, surgery centers, and the very thought of being put under. I was so scared, but then I met my nurse, Lori.


If you know me, then you know I immediately started asking Lori her story. Before I knew it I felt like we were best friends! Lori is almost 50, has 5 children, has had 8 miscarriages, and in January found out she had cancer. Two weeks ago she found out she was finally cancer free, BUT was quick to explain her type of cancer usually returns.

I could not believe the things this woman has been through! I asked her, “How do you do it?! How do you have such a positive attitude knowing this could come back?!” She looked me in the eye and said, “You have two choices when things go down in your life, you can either crawl into a hole, or you fight! I have young kids, a husband that I adore, and a career I love. Cancer is NOT taking me down! I got this.” I LOVE THIS WOMAN! At that moment all my fear, anxiety, and insecurity about having a miscarriage changed. I went into surgery with so much energy. I was beyond inspired.

Now here is the reason for this blog: Lori is a woman fighting for her LIFE while the rest of us (yes, myself included) so often sit around and complain about what we think we need to be happy. I’ll be happy when I lose weight, when I make more money, when we can finally buy that house. Some people get up everyday and all they do is walk around complaining about themselves. I’m fat, I’m tired, I’m stressed, I’m broke. Are we all just waiting for the phone call that we have a terminal disease? Will that finally make us appreciate what we have? Why are we so scared to go after what we really want? Why do we find it easier to sit back and complain than it is to follow our dreams? One word: FEAR.

FEAR keeps us from going after what we want in life. We are so paralyzed by what other people think that we don’t fight for what we really want until it’s too late. It’s the reason we talk ourselves out of asking for a raise – what if they say NO? Fear is the reason why we won’t join a new fitness program – what if I can’t keep up, what if people think I’m slow, I’m too out of shape? It’s the reason we stay in bad relationships – I could never make it on my own. It’s too hard to start over. No matter who you are or where you are in your life, people will tell you how you should live. They will tell you how to raise your kids, what you should do for a career, and yet they are not the ones who live YOUR life. When life is lived trying to please every person, the one person who ends up miserable is you.

There is only one person we NEED in life to make us happy, and that person is you. You are the only thing you need. We must value who we are and what we have to give this world. A nice car, a nice body, and having perfect kids are not what make you successful.  Define what success is to YOU, and go after it. Don’t determine your own success by other people’s standards.

People told me, “You shouldn’t tell people you’re pregnant too soon, just in case something happens”. Well, something did happen! I had a miscarriage. I’m not ashamed of it. Something wasn’t right.

We all have two choices in how we can handle things when they don’t go as planned:

  1. Crawl in a hole and give up or
  2. You fight!

Here is my blog asking you to fight. I’m asking you not to wait until something tragic happens for you to want to make a change. DO IT NOW. If you want better for yourself, believe in yourself. Stop living by other people’s standards. Stop giving into fear and start standing up for YOU. Nothing in your life will get better until you decide you deserve better for the most important person in your life, YOU.

It’s not selfish to put yourself first. The longest relationship you will ever have is the relationship you have with yourself. Stop being ashamed and insecure about who you are. You deserve more. If you needed permission, here it is: go after what makes you happy, no matter what you’ve been through in this life.

I love all of you. Thank you Lori for sharing your strong story and inspiring this blog. I am moving forward, fighting for what I want in my life, and I honestly cannot wait to share my next positive pregnancy test with all of you!





  • Melissa the Great says:

    FIGHT ON. Thank you for sharing. Love you!!! <3

  • Sylvia Morikawa says:

    Your awesomeness and positivity is an inspiration to us all. Best wishes to you

  • Lisa Ward says:

    Thank you so much for sharing. Fight on. I appreciate how “real” you are and sharing. Thank you Lori- beautiful

  • Yes, been there too! Hope you heal up and keep moving forward. God has a plan.

  • Will Bowden says:

    Jenny – Always incredible.

  • Carrie Gerend says:

    I never leave replies on blogs. But I am tonight. I loved reading this — -all of it — truth. And I kinda want to read it every day when I wake up in the morning…

    • Jenny Schatzle says:

      Carrie Thank you for reading & replying!! You are awesome!

      • Kari Merrill says:

        She IS awesome…happens to be my person, my bestie. And. I just love this connection. Jenny YOU are one of the most empowering, amazing souls I have never met…..yet. XO

  • Gina says:

    You’re awesome, Jenny! Keep on doing your thing:)

  • Julie Koonce says:

    We all love you Jenny! You got this!

  • Nicole Dunn says:

    Oh Jenny! You got this! WE love you and thank you for sharing your story with everyone. Keep your chin up!! xoxo

  • Krystal says:

    Ive been having a very rough time with my diagnosis and pain levels lately… this could not have popped up on my feed at any better time. I’ve had some very bad thoughts and this just totally changed that. I know its a long road ans i cannot change over night but thank you for this blog. I realky needed to read something like this. Best of luck to you keep fighting

  • Megan says:

    Thank you for your story Jenny! I have 3 amazing helthy kids. 7, 5 and 3. I have moved on in life and am engaged to a wonderful man and step dad. We found out we were expecting and very excited (after a bit of fear). At around 9 weeks (what we thought) I started bleeding. I went for an ultrasound and they seen a sac. So we needed to wait a bit longer to confirm. Well I bled for 1 day. After that ultrasound I bled again. Went for another ultrasound and they seen a fetal pole and yoke! Our spirits were lifted. The day after that ultrasound is when the clots came..and I knew. An ultrasound confirmed that there was nothing left. I felt broke and damaged. How after 3 amazing pregnancies did this happen?!. My fiance was torn…his first child and I felt like I failed him. But after a few talks with some friends…it was my body noticing something that I didn’t… we lost baby on June 3rd (the day after my youngest 3rd birthday). It is now August 29 and we are almost 12 weeks pregnant! We are so thrilled. Your time will come, and your body never fails you.. keep on Jenny!!!!

  • Lia says:

    Jenny, I found your TEDx talk on YouTube tonight and while watching, I realized I was holding my breath…Your words struck such a chord with me that I actually forgot to breathe. I was mesmerized by your energy and message…Tears streamed down my face as I listened to you talk…And now, I came to seek out your blog and just read about your miscarriage and about Lori’s story — You both fill me with inspiration and hope! I have been feeling so down lately and your message, story and Lori’s too, give me the push I needed to love and appreciate myself! I cannot thank you enough!!!!

    • Jenny Schatzle says:

      Thank you for this comment you have no idea how much it means to me! YOU’VE GO THIS GIRL, I know you do.
      I believe in you now it’s time for you to believe in you!!

    • Jenny Schatzle says:

      I wanted to check in with you and tell you I am thinking about you and sending you energy!!!

  • Michelle says:

    Hey Jenny,I’m so glad I found you,gone through a lot in the last year.Then I found you!your Ted talk moved my soul.I have been on a hudge journey,you see seven years ago I chose to loose weight,& lost 125 lbs,took me 18months.I still have issues with owning it ( strange I know) I sometimes feel guilt,but want to share,with anyone who is stuck in the trap.once I figured it out I could not believe how easy it was,as I failed for years.Jenny I am a mom of two children (& two grandkids)whom have left home now,& after hearing you talk about your mom & dad (I balled)on Ted talk ,I know you are bowned for mummy hood! however it happens get ready babe! cas it’s gona,rock your world! Blessings chicklet . MichelleM